My past, once whittling me away, reeked with sorrow and was abused with any and all attempts using whatever I could find for the cheapest price. I breathed smoke more than I did oxygen and you could trace a whole zoo of self-medication in my hair follicles. Though it was more than just the using; I had felonies stacked up waiting for the police to find them, fingerprints all over a new age of Sodom and Gomorrah and sting operations creeping around my entrepreneurial endeavors. When I wasn’t ripping people off I was raiding there sock drawers and between the spray paint, breaking, and entering I was condemning a trail of property behind me. If it wasn’t hitting on your siblings it was because you weren’t a close enough friend and the list continues like this getting worse and worse.
With a past like mine a future seemed dim at best and suicidal when thought probable, but what happened in actuality was unexpectedly profound. My savior took this life I wasn’t living and turned it into a briefcase for His business with the wolves. You see in a dream I found Proverbs 14:4 telling me that I could actually use this thick headed ox like past that had been filling my stable of a life with its crap for an abundant harvest that God had planned for me all along.
There is a new people rising as the baby boomers begin to reach there end and to be frank it is a shadow slowly but surely covering the earth. This new form of warfare gives PTSD the chills as a nation of angst gets old enough to make there video games reality. There isn’t just a lack of biblical knowledge anymore there is a lack of care for it and that’s a new form a danger never before seen by God’s flock of sheep, it has them quacking at their knees. We’re coming into a time in which one needs to be able to get knee deep in scum without flinching at the knife in their ribs, they need to show no fear in their eye with a gun down their throat and still be able to preach through the bullets. In this devolution with a past like mine the future, though intimidating most, is what I’ve been being trained for.